I chose to write to you this time, after a couple of months of not writing to anyone... I miss you. Like crazy. I know I f*cked sh*t up between us, and now you probably hate me. Stormagadon is being clingy... But me hanging out with her gives me a chance to watch you. Even if your back is turned to me, I can't help but watch. I watched you at your locker, and I'll follow behind you in the hallway. But you never look at me. I can understand why. You think I'm an attention whore who takes self-harm and suicide too lightly. And so you don't want to associate yourself with me. I miss hugging you, Kissing you... Even the weird little noises you'd make at me just to hear me giggle. I know you won't ever take me back. I had hoped you would be the one to stand beside me. But I guess you weren't. It's alright. Everyone leaves me anyways. You'll just be the cake topper on my life's disappointments. I know you don't, but I love you, even if you don't want to talk to me. I wish you did.
· Sun Nov 10, 2013 @ 11:01pm · 0 Comments