11/9/2013 6:51 AM
The days feel like they last forever, even though I sleep 12+ hours to make the time pass by as quickly as possible. Yet still when I type the date for these entries, I feel like time is slipping away from me. I feel like so much is being wasted- memories, fun times, bond-strengthening events...the list goes on and on. The strength inside me cringes at this. I am strong for now, but this is so difficult to endure. Not only that, but my worries and fears are upon me. They are constantly at the back of my mind...calling to me. My fears are not mine to be had, but that doesn't change that I have them and always will. I fear She will find someone else while She is in need. I fear She will make poor decisions in these times. I fear that She may never come back to me. I fear that I wait and endure for no happiness to come. I tell myself these fears are just that. I tell myself that I am strong and so is She. She can handle Herself and you better handle yourself as well. I try to push my fears out, but they have been heard and I cannot erase them. I hold hope close and tight. These fears may be real to me, but they won't take my hope, confidence, or will. I will continue to wait and hope until the day comes where I am happy once again.
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