So it seems that, when I was going through my toughest time, I must have pushed away nearly everyone I care for.. I am such a complete and total ******** up.. I should have welcomed them all close with open arms and hugged them tight but instead I ignored them and disappeared..
When I talk to the people I was once extremely comfortable talking with, only awkwardness and one word replies are left..
I feel so alone, so incredibly alone.
What makes it worse is that I'm being home-bound now.. so my real life interactions are being brought down to almost zero. So... I don't know anymore..
I really just don't know.
And to any one reading this, this must sound so melodramatic. You're probably raising your eyebrow at me. I don't blame you, in fact, I will tell you right now that you should look at how you're treating your loved ones, and if you aren't treating them well enough, change, and change quickly.
My home has become a desolate waste land.. I don't even know why I get on this site anymore..
Am I really expecting something to happen?
Or am I clinging to the last bits of what used to be the closest thing I ever had to a family?
When I talk to the people I was once extremely comfortable talking with, only awkwardness and one word replies are left..
I feel so alone, so incredibly alone.
What makes it worse is that I'm being home-bound now.. so my real life interactions are being brought down to almost zero. So... I don't know anymore..
I really just don't know.
And to any one reading this, this must sound so melodramatic. You're probably raising your eyebrow at me. I don't blame you, in fact, I will tell you right now that you should look at how you're treating your loved ones, and if you aren't treating them well enough, change, and change quickly.
My home has become a desolate waste land.. I don't even know why I get on this site anymore..
Am I really expecting something to happen?
Or am I clinging to the last bits of what used to be the closest thing I ever had to a family?
