i have given up hope. i am lost and hes not gonna find me. hes not gonna come looking for me. i gave up a lot to be with him. how much is gone. what can become of this. for a few years of happiness. was it wroth it all. my does my heart hold on to this bit of hope, dangling string that could snap at any moment.. where do i stand. what am i giving him time for. i guess i will never find out. we dont talk. we really dont do anything. but i must be strong and not go back. i can see this path has its good and its bad. not all is wroth giving up but some things sometimes just need to be broguth back for a few moments to be re-evaulated to head down the right path. i am coming to terms with this.