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Meditative analysis of the Fallibility of Humanity, Act: III
Where I reinforce my apparent apathy with irreverent, unexplained sarcasm, a maze of near-unintelligible adverbs and adjectives, and a plethora of irrelevance, animosity, and complete disregard for any readers' sanity, self-esteem, or will to live.
Why I don't know scifi
Because I'm a toy, a tool for transport.

Not a human, simply a means. They build up, and then laugh.

Why are they wrong? Because they believe I've no right to faith.

And I've made a mentality off a philosopher's quote.

Quite possibly because I've always despised magic, but mostly because they've decided I'm not a person, because I don't talk. I don't turn fantard. I walk with purpose, not direction. And I don't take well to manipulation.

I'm a little over-aware of anything, maybe.

So why am I not a puppet? Because they're blind and numb. And the way to cure that has nothing to do with me.

Any other reasons for which anyone may hate, not care, or simply dislike me for my manner of dissociation from society, aren't worth making note of since they are likely things that are unimportant to me, or they are reasons for which I thoroughly hate myself as well as am likely struggling with.

This is, at least, why I would assume anyone's spreading the disease (toys. really.). That is to say, the one I am inclined toward assuming due to being very annoyed at the disease with which I've infected society and people.

Having taken a moment to pause, and breathe, the annoyance turned a little to sadness at which I sorta dropped the topic. My bad. Shame on me for deciding I might be able to make use of some oxegyn.

Really. Some people, I swear.....

edit: Or maybe it's just the age-old adage of it being fcking stupid to use the word verbophobia. I mean fear of words??? Really?? What are you, retarded???

At which I would likely say, shut up, but this tends to provoke things.
...well depending on how I say it, lol. I really need to keep quiet, but it's been getting to me. As I grow older.

I am old. Too old to not speak. Not old enough to preach, or teach. Let alone express my hate for words.
Basically I can't do s**t because I ain't got s**t.

Regardless, this goes back to being an infant. It's a neurological thing, not "BABY SAID SOMETHING MEAN TO ME AND I'M A CRYBABY WHO WANTS ATTENTION."

Oh, and I have Asperger's. That's kind of an explanation...for everything really. But that doesn't seem to make a difference with people, possibly due to that immovable first impression.

Inability to reform first impressions is an indicator of unrelenting stupidity, but it is what it is. /a pain in the a**

I'm not going to change anyone, or destroy language, or affect your capacity to speak.

But I won't let you piss me off or unknowingly hurt me to the point that I turn the blade back toward you.

Maybe I do walk around with a knife at my throat, but it can't cut me, only cause great agony and crippling wounds. Only when I seize the handle does it become deadly.

Sometimes artfully so. I do get bored after all. dramallama

edit: So...what, they've figured it out? Or I just don't care....
Bleh. mad

Rinn Lothron
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