what is this. this pain. i no longer know what it is. it hurts. i feel its slowly killing me. it hurts when i am way from him and when i get close it hurts even more. seeing him go out to do anything i feel jealous not knowing where hes going or what hes going out to do, is he going to go meet up with someone that is going to replace me... idk i am suppose to move on i felt like i did. yet i keep getting pulled back. i have to let him go before i break him beyond repair. this is the life i shall live. the pain that will never stop the pain that hurts yet i can not cry. the pain that will shatter my world. its not the end of my world but i will be so broken by the time anyone finds out or anyone comes to help me. maybe so far gone that no one can love me anymore. only time will tell.