Sometimes we write something we don't even want to write about because it makes it easier to comprehend. While putting something down into words can make it even more real it can also help one cope and heal with an event that is plaguing your mind. Recently I had a memory resurface, it came about while just chatting with another friend, enjoying each others company when conversation about horror movies turned into fears, which then turned into that which brought up something I had long ago locked away. Over a decade ago, after nightmares and a ten year old self who could not comprehend what she had seen, finally pushed aside the thoughts for the life that a ten year old should have.
Older and wiser, I look at the vivid memory in a new light. I wonder about other things concerning that event. How many others were effected by it. Who else had no idea what to do with it and instead of keeping it ever present they stuffed into a box and placed a lock on it? Doing so to tuck it away to a recess of their mind where it could stay and not be thought about again. As it has now resurfaced I find myself dwelling on it in a way I never have. A part of me is always with it, and I can only hope that in a few days time I will be able to push it back aside and lock it back into the box I had made for it years ago.
inu-chick 316 · Sat Aug 24, 2013 @ 11:48pm · 0 Comments |