its 5:50 am, and to say the least, in the past week, i've delt with
a horrible transition to a new house,
my car broke down this morning several hours away from home,
band on saturday was a lighter version of the h(iya how ya doin?) i'm going to end up going through, but it is the last year for this school for me,
a whole lot of arguments (not caused by me, i was not involved, but it does stress me when people argue so loudly when i'm trying TO SLEEP HERE!,
and last of all, chorus the other week, well, the was as close to Heaven (middle earth ish, approxamatly is where i ended up) as i shall get to before seniors are let out, and a pivitoal moment of this year will be Graduation, because i survived.
so yeah, in the past 49 hours (i wake up at approxamatly 4:30 am, all day, ere day) i have been over stressed, gotten no sleep, okk, amendments the the arguement thing, yesterday, between 4 and 5:30 pm, i was arguing with my da to go and hang out with my friends and watch Summer Slam. i lost. i ended up locking myself in my room, and proceded to play my music loudly. ode to Christmass songs. my da hates them this "early" in the year. i said: " Welcome to the wourld, father. Your daughter is in CHOIR. she sings these songs all year long, headless of peoples opinions, unless it is her director, vocal coach, or someone she knows who is TRYING to IMPROVE her VOICE and how SHE SINGS THEM!!"
so yea. i'm not in the best of moods, because he then proceded to drive the convertible out of town, and a few hpurs from point b (going to) he broke down. so from about 7pm, to 4:30 am, i was home alone, and was going through various excersixes, both vocal, and physical, took a shower, and poof, they were home and telling me to prep to come here, to my mum's, and go to school from here.
and youre probably asking why dont i just excersize when theyre home? because i'm usually doing something for them.
why not just vocally then? they complain, and listening to them complaining is annoying because i have FOR THE PAST 17 YEARS OF MY LIFE. i prefer silence to that now, where as, at the 13 mark, i enjoyed hearing them complain, and eventually they would leave me alone. now they comein or out with earplugs in, and while they can still hear me, and they still complain, they will not leave me be.
why not move out then? i'm not able to yet, because, A) i'm not emancipated, B), i have no steady income.
tough luck right? when life hands you lemmons, you hand back the bad ones as best you can, and move on to sell the others. eventually, you'll be able to buy an apple a day, and keep most of (the bad side of) mother nature away. one day, you may own a bay, and eventually what goes around comes around.
i guess what i'm trying to say is: you get what you got, and you gotta work with it. eventually things will go your way, and if you did it wrong, your past WILL haunt you.
and to those who share with me this first day of school, and for those who it is tomarrow, HALLAA! and good luck.
shout out to: my epic semi-part time roommate!
lol thats so weird to say lol xd
warning: please be carful, it might be to... i would say "un-innocent".. i think that works. but 15+ please (15 yrs minimum, please)
its 5 am! lol check it out! &3 smile
and no i didnt make it. all credit goes to the artists and the person who made the video.
Bye everyone!! <333
clan of the volfees