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I haven't wrote an entry in awhile and I feel like it today. This one is less story and more of an rant from me.

Why does anyone do anything? Lately I've been thinking about this question. People do things that are even a mystery to them. Like loving someone every much one day and the next wonder if the relationship is working. Talk to that person they like but keep their feelings hidden. Afraid that sharing them would end up hurting themselves. For different reasons of course. Could be afraid they are going to get hurt, that the relationship won't work, or rejection. Yet some people go out and look for others while some stay in and avoid everyone. I'm at a mixed here and for some time.
I have awesome friends and family members in my life, yet at times I still wish people would leave me alone. I dont know why though. Sometimes I feel like yelling at people and hurt them who don't deserve it just to see their reaction. Maybe this normal to think this way or maybe I'm more messed up in the head than I thought.
Its not just me though when it comes to why we do things. I look at other people and dont understand their choices. They'll stay in abusive relationship because of love or stay with someone because they are afraid to be alone. SO it comes back to the question; why does anyone do anything? Do we even know why we do the things we do or think the way we do?

I dont really have anything else to add but thanks for reading.