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Words....I've always had such an obsession with words. Lyrics, poems, plays. I take a lot from words. But Words are just words. And depending on where they come from, they can deceive you. So I don't want words. Actions speak louder then words. And lately there have been no need for words. Although I honestly wanna scream out loud.

Things are getting serious with Barb. I didn't think they would, and I didn't really want them to, at first. But now I think I do. I just spent the last 24 hours with him, and I had a wonderful time. He's so cute and nice with me. He makes me smile, and laugh, gives me a very calming feeling. But at the same time makes me nervous cause I don't wanna mess things up some how.

If things keep going to way they are, I don't think it will be much longer before we are in a relationship together. I don't know how that will work, but it defiantly feels like it is rapidly heading in that direction.

We made plans together. We are going to go on a weekend trip together to ether Indy or St. Louis. Not sure which one though. We are going to go up the weekend before my birthday. I makes me happy that he wants to plan something together that far in advance. But I am a little worried about my finances. I'm gonna have to try and put back some money for this trip. I know he would pay for the whole thing if I wanted him to. But I don't. He already takes me out to eat and takes me places and pays for it more times then not. I have to steal the check away from him. But lately I haven't been able to afford the places he's taken me. I know hes a got a big high paying job and all, but I can't see how he affords to pay for things like he does.

I know right, I'm being such a baby cause I have a cute guy who likes to take me nice places and pay for it. He really is pretty awesome. We just laid in bed today for hours, just cuddling, and kissing. I really like having his body next to mine like that.

Oh god. I've done it again. Written another sappy journal about some guy like a love sick teenage girl. I should really get a grip. I'm gonna get off here now and go do something manly....not really. Later