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Take my hand. The music is beginning.

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Simple perfection.
Nothing extra, nothing missing.
Using that word is hard, because our language butchers and callously tosses the true meanings of our alliterations into the dirt.
But that is what it was.
What She was to me.
To hold perfection, to know perfection... Not many can say such a thing.
But I did. I knew a perfect love.
One that did not judge, did not question, but humbly and happily accepted every quirk and hiccup and flaw. It was mine. Mine to keep forever...

Or so I thought.
Life has a funny way of allowing you to screw everything up. To let you see a glimmer of something more, something that could be yours, and then suddenly you slip, and fall flat on your face into the mud. Live and Learn, they say.

What is there left to learn when your world is turned upside down by your own selfish hands?
When you had everything, and threw it away?
What kind of HORRIBLE MONSTER purposefully turns his back on the one who he has loved and been loved by, all for the sake of pure selfishness...
I can't stand to look in the mirror. Because When I do, I see her tear-stained face glaring back at me...
And all I can think is How could you be so selfish? You sicken me, you filthy sack of s**t...
Except that leads into a conversation with myself. And arguing with yourself is not a normal thing.

When will this accursed suffering end?
Never, that's when.
You deserve to squirm in agony, howling miserably for the rest of your days.
After all, you've given up the one who truly loved you.
You don't deserve her... You don't deserve another...

And even if you did...

Just how many people do you think are capable of loving a BEAST like you?

User Comments: [1]
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comment Commented on: Tue Jul 01, 2014 @ 03:20pm
This is quite beautiful. You should write more. I'd like to read more from you.

User Comments: [1]
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