Time has moved along and your absence has made my heart forgetful... of you. You don't seem affected at all. So Its not really a loss. In fact you seem as if nothing matters anymore.. I never mattered at all.
Its fine. The more time we spent away from each other.. the more I spent with him. First he was my friend then.. boyfriend.. then lover.. now Fiance. I didn't know how to tell you in fear that your heart was as fragile as ever.. but now it seems.. It doesn't matter. You'll always remain in my heart as a beautiful dream, but always a dream. Something unreal. As I move forward into my life.. He is the one taking hold of my hand. He is my companion and now my bestfriend.
I thought for a long long time that it would be you, but.. now.. I see. We just weren't meant to be. We were only meant to dream. Me and you can remain friends but I cant see you in the light I once held you in. You were my light.. but you were an illusion and I cried when I realized this. You weren't who I wanted in the end. Because you didn't want me the same way. so... Im letting you go from my dreams and my heart. even though you will remain dear to me... My dear... I adore you..
I...I... love him.
Mostly to myself.. I write this in sad realization of who I am meant to be with.. I write this for myself.. and for you, whom I'm letting go. It isn't fair to either to keep pretending.. We've got to let go and move on..
~Always adored by me.. Dream
 ll trouble ll · Mon Jul 08, 2013 @ 11:49pm · 2 Comments |
