On Writing scream

Well, I guess I should write something down because I said that I was going to write in here every day.
I also told myself that if I wrote a page a day, I would have my book done by the end of summer. I really am motivated to work on it because I want to prove to myself that I don't always give up on everything.
I've never actually written an entire book before. I am going to try to make it sound like it could actually be published one day. I never really thought of myself as an author, but I don't know, I guess I like writing.
I never really understood my relationship with writing. It's a love / hate kind of thing.
I never really liked it, but I've always been pretty good at it, although I rarely ever finish writing any of my ideas down completely.
And there's the school newspaper. I had an interview a few days ago, but i haven't been contacted by anyone (yet?). I've been thinking, though, and I really do want to join, but there's this voice in the back of my head that says,"You're not good enough, You screwed up that interview, You're going to hell, etc."
I feel like writing more, but I don't know what else i want to add.

I guess I just don't know.