I just need someone to talk to and all I have is this. I'm mentally and emotionally tired. I'm utterly tired of feeling like a parent to my brother and sisters, I'm tired of being responsible. I feel like I never got a chance to be a child because I was such a serious and responsible child. I never wanted to grow up like all the other kids, I didn't want to drive or do adult things. I'm f*cking tired of watching over my siblings, dealing with the smart remarks and making sure they do what they need to do. I get tired of hearing them b*tch and attitude when I ask them to put the dishes away; they make it seem like I love making dinner everyday and all the responsibilities I have daily. I have to kiss the ouchies and stay up sometimes giving medicine or cleaning wounds ... I'm not a parent and yet I might as well be. I get scared when I think of getting a job because I worry about who is going to do the things I do at the house, what the f*ck. But in truth I know I'd be working and doing the same damn things while my mom's husband does what he does best, nothing. Why can't I get out of this? Why do I feel so trapped?
· Sat Jun 15, 2013 @ 03:58am · 0 Comments