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So I haven't been on here in a while. Like a pretty decently long while.
I guess I have fallen into a little bit of a depression or some sh*t. I've been having a lot of medical problems and have been working my ass off, pulling doubles and swing shifts like f*cking mad. I guess I kind of inadvertently ditched all of my roleplays because let's face it, I just disappeared off the site for a while.
My personal life f*cking sucks. Boyfriend and I are fighting so much lately, always arguing and finding reasons to slam each other down. My friends are drifting away. The only person who has stayed by me is my best guy friend and that is so not helping THAT whole situation. Sigh. I have been so scared and unmotivated. My workout routine is dropping and I beat myself up so much about that.
I honestly have no motivation anymore.
My boss is always finding reasons to yell at me and make me feel like I am three inches tall. I am trying to help people out by lending them things and money all of the time and I never get any of it back so now I'm just a broke ass white girl with no friends, a sh*tty boyfriend, a f*cking awful job and no motivation.
I thought about going to the doctor or something a couple of times... but I don't want to really be diagnosed with anything. I don't want to rely on medication to make me happy because I kind of feel like that's cheating. But without it... I don't even know.
So. If anyone reads this and I quit on you or anything, I really do apologize. I just need motivation to reply. To log on. To do anything.
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· Thu May 16, 2013 @ 05:04am · 0 Comments