I don't feel good. I feel shaky. I want to not give a sh*t. I want to be in a car speeding down the wrong side of the road at 100 mph. I want to climb a building and drink and smoke and not give a f*ck. I want to be away from here. I want to be in someone's arms. I want to just let everything go and stop living this life that I'm stuck in. I can't stand this. I'm tired of my father abandoning me. I'm tired of getting blamed for everything. I'm tired of my mother coming to America and f*cking with me. I'm tired of Rita yelling at me because she's mad at father. I just want it to end.
I can't believe that people are graduating already. I'm going to miss people. Not a lot. But a little bit. Because I don't know. It's just weird knowing that all of my friends are graduating and I'm not. I won't have any friends at school, because I can't get along with people that are my age or younger. I can't believe Marni is graduating. Nick and Aaron are graduating. Kyo is graduating. Jay and Josh are graduating. I hope that they will all keep in touch with me... Congratulations to you all though. I'm so happy for you, and I can't wait until next year when Iget to join you in the "real world". <3
My cat is licking icy hot off of my knees. He'll regret it later when his insides are dying. I won't stop him though, because he'll learn.
Purple Sky Painter
· Mon May 06, 2013 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments