I got a 3.17 on comp. I finished my book, no signatures left except the final oral board one. Not sure exactly what my issue is, I imagine it's a compilation of several things. I have a hard time remembering things these days and putting simple concepts together is a constant struggle. As a side note I've never been this sad this often in my life. I can't seem to keep it away like normal. I think I might be drinking too often and I have to work on not being so lazy all the time. Also this'll be the longest entry I've made in here in a long time. Perhaps this is a small way to vent a little of what I'll go ahead and call my frustration. I guess I've really just become a shitty person all around. My sense of self worth is pretty low these days as well, I need to get this s**t under control or it's gonna be all bad news. I'm never one of those sad people and I hate to complain. I kinda feel like a dip s**t even just putting this in here, but maybe it'll make me feel better, so it's whatever. I need to quit smoking so much as well, the addiction has a firm grip on me and I have no motivation to quit, so it's pretty tough. I can't imagine that I'll be able to pass that final oral board, I don't seem to be able to provide good information these days. It'll be a civilian and a mechanic from another crew. I just hope they give me relatively easy questions or things that I know about. I guess I'll just wrap this up now and get back to struggling with my ineptitude. Goodbye, and good luck.
· Thu Apr 25, 2013 @ 01:56am · 0 Comments