it's coming back
it's all rushing back
and it's rushing back so fast, that it's throwing me to different walls that i can't get over.
can't i just start over?
can't i just stay the way i was?
why does there always have to be chains attached to my ankles?
is there no key?
can't i let myself go?
i'm forever to be running in circles, crying and asking for help, even though no one will hear me.
no one will notice me.
no one will acknowledge me for the person i really am.