I usually lie about things but lately I have been telling more truth than I would like but hey, life is a b*tch. and when have I ever asked to have control of who I am? (Never)
I am changing. And I haven't decided whether its a good or bad change. I haven't thought of who I would be after. I don't like not knowing but the journey has me excited, I rather have someone next to me keeping me grounded. But who? I don't love anyone enough to have them be there for me. They offer blindly. Do they realize that my baggage is to much to just be with me.
I know I sound like I self pitty but its not like that. I hate myself for being the way I am. I hate that I try to change and get worse. I hate that I hurt people that I love because I am this monster that has as it seems no care. I hate who I am for I am not what I seem to be anymore.
To The Moon And Back SG
· Fri Apr 05, 2013 @ 08:12am · 0 Comments