Alejandro/Alex/Bean
Some of you may know him; some of you may not. He goes by Alex, but when he was on Gaia, his username was X-FRIJOLE-X. So, I first met Alex in a rally one day; a random friend request is what truly initiated our friendship. We found out that we'd had a lot in common, and that fact was quite refreshing. I remember going to rallies with him all the time, just sitting on our cars, talking about whatever was on our minds. Whenever I was having a seemingly horrendous day with Stuart, he'd make it better. Everything. He was just a breath of fresh air, honestly. We'd ended up tagging each other as "best friends" after a while, and as we all know, sometimes best friends can turn into much more whether we want it to or not. After numerous episodes of arguing with Stuart about his "friend" Risha, we broke up; I honestly thought I could not take it anymore. Days later, Alex asked me out, and I said yes. Our relationship, though we were very together, continued to remain platonic. Thinking back on it, I tried so hard to act like more than a friend with him. Though he did, I felt hesitant; I don't know why, even now. I mean, here was a guy who I could say anything and everything to, who madly wanted me, who would accept me for who I completely 100% was... And here was I, a fourteen-year old girl who didn't know what the hell she wanted, regularly wore glasses, and thought anime was the coolest thing since sliced bread. I feel horrible typing this, but our relationship was terribly short-lived, and I ended up leaving him for Stuart. The heartwrenching part is that he let me go; he knew that I THOUGHT I was in love with Stuart, so he accepted it. We remained friends after that, even though my feelings for him continued to grow for some time. I still talk to Alex to this day, but deep down, I'll always feel a little bit guilty and wonder what if I had stuck it out back then. I have no regrets, though. He's a great guy; I'm lucky to still be friends with him.
