David and Charles are here........................./../.../././....././././././././././....
They're standing right behind me....../../././../././././././........m/.......m/ m/
I am sad right now....... m/ m/
I don't know why, but it is kinda bugging me.
I feel like drinking, but I'm not much of a social drinker.
AAAAAAAAAA....lol I dropped something and I accidentally typed those A's....
Maybe it was my subconscious who knows really.
I feel like I'm done really I don't feel like hanging out with my friends right now.
I kinda just want to be alone forever right now, lol I might be an Emily Dickenson.
Only let certain people visit me only leave my home when necessary.
I doubt anyone would visit me anyone now that I think about it.
People only visit me now cause I invite them really.
No one talks to me unless I start a conversation, and I suck at doing that.
I'm getting bad at keeping them going too now.
f*ck it though I guess people can be f*cking annoying so at least I don't deal with that anymore. I do miss flesh though, it's so warm. I need another f*cking loser who wants to be with me all the time. Someone who doesn't care about other things but we'd learn to care for each other, doesn't that sound romantic? I think so even though it'd never happen. My idea of romance doesn't exist anymore unfortunately. Meaning I'm alone in my own nihilistic values still. I still can't see the purpose of life. I don't care that I can't see it, but it would be nice to see it. Does that make sense? I don't think it does anymore? Though I'll reread this and agree with myself can you? Well if someone other than me reads this garbage. I doubt it I downloaded new music though I really like it, it makes me happy. Since a lot of things don't anymore Most things just piss me off or make me kinda sad. That or it just kinda goes by me I guess and even when it doesn't I don't show that it did affect me. I'm good at hiding my emotions like that, getting even better as of late. That reminds me I started talking to Laura she is pretty darn cool. I can see us getting kinda close, but it wont happen. I dropped the bombshell of necrophilia being romantic to me and she gave me two opinions, but didn't say which one was hers. The fact that she didn't react negatively was good enough for me though. It seems I may have found someone twisted enough to accept my reality, though she doesn't really know many things about me. She just hasn't asked many questions. She did happen to compliment me a lot though, which is something not many people do. Even though I do like insults I don't know why I do but I do. Maybe because I've adapted to them? That sounds like something Nikki would say. Well hotdamn! I'm done for now. No messages on Facebook, No messages on Gaia, No messages on Tumblr, No messages on Skype, Hearing Voices, Hallucinations, yup a normal day...well night...