Yes Im back and apparently people actually read this thing so for the rest of the year I'm going to be writing in this thing whether or not someone reads it.
Self esteem Or lack thereof...
So for a while now ive been friends with this guy. He's cute, hilariously funny, into the same stuff I am and he makes me feel like total crap. From the beginning we were pretty good friends and since New Years Eve it's turned sexual. Arthur started was cute, he'd send me messages constantly, see what I was doing and was just genuinely interested in me and not just my vjay jay. Suddenly it's all changed, he's less interested, he couldn't careless if he didn't see me, never sends me any cute messages an basically just wants one thing.
I know, I know I should just tell him to get f*cked or go take a romantic stroll off a cliff but for some reason I can't do it. I asked him about two weeks ago what this was, was it going anywhere etc and he said he wants me around he cares and trusts me a lot etc and I felt better. That was dumb because nothing changed. My friends suggested I just lay it all out and so I did. (Main extracts only)
"I want you to stay in my life but at the moment all I feel good for us spreading my legs and that's just not ok"
You'd think by saying something like that he might ask why I feel that way, has he done/said anything, you know take a general interest but instead I got..
"You're not just good at opening your legs and please don't ever think that"
He then proceed to tell me all about his car and I was like ok cool I just tell you you make me feel like an unpaid whore and you can't give a f*ck!
So far guys I'm confused since this is my first sort of thing I really don't know what to do. Tips, advice, any things appreciated (even the mean or harsh reality stuff is most welcome!)
Anyway that's my rant.
Much love x
Rainbow Flavoured Cyanide