Yep... So this is a continuation of the last journal entry pretty much, because it's basically about the same issue. Because of that, I'll probably make this entry shorter than usual.

I decided to put matters into my own hands and text Keiko, telling her that our relationship isn't going very well... I did this at around noon today, and now it's 10:30 PM, and I still haven't heard from her...

I have a feeling something bad might've happened to her.... but I'm at the point now where it's like, "Okay.... This is getting really old..." It's like, fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on you, fool me a third time, still shame on you, fool me a FOURTH time, shame on ME...

I should've known something like this would happen. And I had this gut feeling telling me that it would happen, ever since the beginning.. And I guess this was it.... Does it suck? Sure it does..... Am I really broken hearted? Honestly.... I can't say I'm all that affected... See, I've gone through this kind of bad luck with girls so many times before, that now it's basically turning into a routine for me. I'm very used to getting hurt, so it's like, "Meh.... This again..."

It sounds really mean, but I've gone through this so many times. It's like, what am I supposed to feel like? You know?


I wasn't really meant for love anyway... XP