Well, that's three nights in a row that I've had a dream that somehow includes a certain person.
New record.
Seriously, RIGHT AFTER I tell myself to get over myself about this particular issue, and poof! He's in my dreams again!
Why am I so hung up on someone I can never meet?
I don't get it.
It is to the point that he will come into my thoughts in some way or another almost every day.
I hate myself for this.
It needs to stop, but it won't!
My stupid imagination will always try and get my hopes up!
And I always try to think that these dreams with him in them mean something and they do appear to mean something, but I can't tell if that's just my overactive imagination or not.
...Why do I keep thinking I would even have a chance even if I did meet him?
And whenever I think about it, it gets hard to breathe and my face gets warm.
I hate it, but I can't help but keep hoping that I might have a chance if I try...