I really am stupid, aren't I??
why why why why why why why WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF??
I really really really hate my imagination sometimes because it keeps getting my unrealistic hopes up and I can't stop it!
Good god, I'm just hopeless.
I know there's know way I can win, I know there's no way I can make these wild delusions come true, but then WHY DO I KEEP GETTING MY HOPES UP?????
I'm very sorry to anyone (if any) who read this.
As the description to the journal says, this IS a place where I can vent.
Especially so cause no one I know will read this and give a sh*t.
There are days where I really wish I could just scream.
Anyway, rant done.

In other news, college sure is fun.