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Why is life so complicated? what did we do in previous lifes to deserve this hatred, agony, cruelty, heartbreak... I loved him more than ive ever loved anybody that I was related or that ive known since i was 7. this Guy hes been my friend since freshmen year, he was a sophomore when I sat in my seat in Algebra 2 i didn't know that his seat was next to me but I dont know if I regret or appreciate the fact that i sat there if i had never done that I wouldn't have met him, I wouldnt have known this LOVE emotion_bigheart , this sex deal either wouldnt exsist, but i wouldnt have the person who showed me how to love again, who overtime became my best friend and who the second something happened I texted or called him, hes not the hottest guy so i never thought I would like him because im into being superficial and thats how judge if i like somebody or not but his personality the way i was sooooo comfortable around him won me over. too bad he never wanted a relationship with me all he wanted was sex... and who can blame him. I am the one who made the sex deal it is my fault our friendship is now so ruined, so fragile that by one word i create an outburts at him... this is my fault... my fault that my NIGGUH emotion_bigheart , my Carlos, aka dumbo my confidant and closest person to me, besides my best friend in the world who lives in pennsylvania, Is now purely a ....
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