I take back, the "I don't want to be heartless" crap. s**t. I was better off being my old mean girl self damn it. Why did I became a girl with a heart? ******** this s**t, the wall is getting put back up. When I fall in love with someone, I fall hard because I don't let many people in; so those that I do let in I usually trust completely, well that is my mistake. That is why I need to keep the wall up at all times, I'm vulnerable and I don't want to be. I was happier before I had let people in and only two people made to the heart. The first did nothing but lie to me and when I broke up with him I wasn't normal. The seond broke up with me two months after I broke up with him and well it was over something that I wasn't even willing about, now I don't know what I'm like. Am I like a zombie? Will I always be angry again? I feel cold all the time now ever since he dumped me, I feel hollow. Is there something wrong with me?
· Fri Jan 11, 2013 @ 09:11pm · 2 Comments