So I guess I feel... Betrayed? Let down? Like this time it seems for real, like I really was going to get ahead in life, like I had found somewhere where I could be understood and make a living. I guess not. I guess its just too much to ask for people to accept that Im quiet and shy. It really is debilitating. Im never doing enough, and it's keeping me from a steady job. No one wants to be around me, though when I do talk I friendly, I try to smile and let them know I want to please. And yet I cannot keep a job without eventually being laid off. Im fodder. Nothing but a space filler... This is such bullsh*t. Can we not? Can I PLEASE just have a job I can do that wont get rid of me after a couple months? f*cking seriously. Application after application and always nothing, the few times it does lead to something its temporary and half assed. Im so sick of it. I'll take three jobs, work too much, just please let me make enough money to get ahead in life... I can't take this... I've grown so much... But the world doesnt give a sh*t about the progress I've made, because I'm still not 'normal' enough. Well guess what? I never will be, so can you PLEASE just let me work for you until I find my real niche? I promise to leave you alone after that, really. Just hire me for a few years, until I get out of college... It wont be long if I've got actual money to DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.
Der Regenbogen Schafe
· Sun Dec 30, 2012 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments