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The art of giving up.
My friends, let me tell you about something that most of us are constantly tempted to do. And I guess you've probably figured out what it is because of the title.
Getting back to the topic, yeah, the art of giving up.
I guess I should've seen myself doing this though. All the signs. All the doubts. All the lies I told, which I told myself was real. All the s**t he made me believe in that I so easily fell for.
The art of giving up simply means letting go.
Let go of all those red and positive emotions, but don't let go of the hate just yet. This is crucial. Let the hate boil inside you and make you believe that he was a jerk and that he was everything that was absolutely wrong about you. Let yourself believe that he made you break down your walls just to crush your heart and make you build those walls up again, but higher and stringer this time. Believe in all the things you would let yourself believe. Give in to the anger and the hurt you've kept inside you for so long.
Besides, what more can you do if the guy you love had already given up on you?

"I kind of given up on the notion of dating you..." Not the exact words, but I don't really want to remember.
That ******** stings, you know?
It. ********. Stings.

I hate you!
You are one big lying b*****d! I don't know why I wanted you so bad and I don't know why I even decided you to be in my life!
********. YOU.

Ah well, we started as strangers.
We'll end as strangers.