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It was so cold.

This must be what dying is like. It was cold but somehow my chest felt hot.

It burned, my skin felt so cold. Frozen, that was what they called it in class.

When you die in a frozen place your bod feels hot. The ice was hard.

Wait, if I was dead then I shouldn't feel pain anymore. What was happening?

My eyes wouldn't open, they were frozen shut. What had happened to me?

Oh right, the bridge broke and I fell to the bottom. The river's rushing water like

flowing ink, its deeps surging and pulling everything underneath. I was looking for

someone... who? I cannot remember, it hurts.

My sister.

I had been looking for Arlie, she had runaway from me after I did something bad.

Something really bad to father.

I made a mistake, and let her watch. I should have made her stay in the back room.

My mistake.

It hurts so much. Maybe it is the price I own the world. My blood and sufering is a

handsome gift compared to my hopeless prayers. Those had long died.

Arlie didn't deserve it though, she was innocent. A young girl the age of ten already

witness poverty, then wealth, and then mutual unhappiness that lead to more

povertiy.

That's why I did it. To protect the only shred of innocence that my life had hoped to

hold. Little Arlie didn't need to see me kill our father like that, she should have been

spared.

My mistake.

Crossing the bridge was also a mistake. Now Arlie is still out there in the cold and I

cannot help her because I am dead. Hah.

I'm dead. Gone. Never to return. I died in the water, or maybe even a little before

that, I think I may have hit a bolder on the way down. But I'm dead.

And Father is dead. Long gone and bloodless.

But Arlie is alive. She can live on, maybe get adopted into a nicer family. A family

where father's don't rape women in the other room, a family where the oldest sister

slits the discusting faher's wriss and throat. A family where she doesn't have to be

broken.





 
 
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