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I don't know why but I hate seeing attractive black guys with white girls. If the black guy is not attractive, then idgaf. I always just wish I want him or especially when I look at porn and see some other girl being screwed by this black guy. Why can't I have him? I know I get jealous but I don't go around telling people that. It would suck even more if he was done with dating his race and only liked black girls. I remember saying I get so jealous and I should give up. But some guy made a good point and said should you give up your power? heart
I think it's so shallow for someone to use your weakness against you. Like for example, they know you get really jealous so they try to get back back at you and get a new gf/bf to piss you off. That is so shallow and I would never talk to them again if they did that and I would curse them out.
I try to hide my emotions so people won't think I'm weak. I have also persuaded myself that I made my dream boyfriend and he could be real, in my head.