I worry that Leather will not allow me to be as ******** up as I am openly. I worry that someone will want to serve me without the knowledge of the monster inside, and not want the monster inside.

I need someone who wants my crazy and my structure, and who's flavor of insanity matches my own.

I'm afraid to commit to this. I know that it's me, but I don't know if this is my group or calling. I'm terrified of calling these people "family."