I used to think I was special. I used to think people could love me the way I loved some people. I thought I could be in love and have love. But these days, I find that no one wants me. No one even makes the attempt to talk to me until I talk to them. I'm replaceable too. I get thrown away by the people I thought were closest to me. I've become an object. People use me and then throw me away like trash. I'm okay with it now. I don't give a single f*ck. I never wanna feel like I felt this past couple weeks. So heartbroken. I felt like an idiot. I just want to be emotionless. So... I give all permissions to any person who just wants to use me, to use me. Take me. Rape me. Use me as a shoulder to cry on. Love on me. Boss me around. Then throw me away and get out of my f*cking life. I'd rather be treated as an item then get attached to anything ever again. I know the moment I get attached I'm going to be tossed again. So I won't do it again.
· Fri Dec 07, 2012 @ 05:24pm · 0 Comments