My father died in an accident a few days ago as we were about to race on horseback... What more is there to say? I could have done something, I knew it wasn't safe. I should have warned him. He slept peacefully for three days after he fell. I never received the opportunity to say goodbye... I miss him. We are mourning for him right now. The castle has felt empty before, but never like this. I have never seen my mother grieving, not even when her sister, my aunt, passed away in the mountains. It is so unsettling, living here at a time like this. And I feel so empty.