I am so tired. I was woken up right out of dark, deep REM sleep by Julia calling me about five times in a row. I'm still too pissed to call her back.

    I don't know that I have enough love or tolerance in my black little heart for that girl. I'm not enough, but believe me, that is MORE than fine with me. She needs a sea of it and I can't give that to her.

    I've been bitching about this for way, way too long. It's time to do something, but what?

    I know she won't understand if I play the "I'm sorry, but I've got a new responsibility to tend to atm -- HogwartsOnline and plotting seshes with Hanna."
    Firstly, because she'd freak out and be like "WHO'S HANNA OMG IS SHE YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND"
    So that's out. And secondly, she would ask me point-blank why that means I can't just talk to her for short periods of time each day. To which I don't have an answer except, "I don't want to." and that's unacceptable.

    I'm so tired.