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Aura's Journal Check out my writing. Some of it's stories, some poems and some is just writing based off a feeling or something that happened.

Aura Wintergreen
Community Member
Ah, such is the curse of life that as a woman I compare myself to other women.

I have so many gorgeous, beautiful, pretty, cute and/or hot friends but then when I look at myself I find none of these qualities. I look in the mirror and I see...I see an unattractive person, I see someone almost everyone passes by, someone that most people wouldn't give a second glance to.

I am not the girl that makes a guy stop in the street and I wouldn't want to be that girl, not really but I look at me and I don't see a pretty girl, I see a plain girl, an unattractive girl, a nerdy girl, I see a freak.

I have been trying to look at myself in a more positive light, to be comfortable with my body, with the way I look but it's hard.

I don't feel beautiful, I don't feel pretty, I don't feel gorgeous, I don't feel cute, I don't feel hot. If you told me I was any of those things, I wouldn't believe you, I couldn't believe you because I don't see those things in myself.

It's why my avatar is so beautiful, so confident, she is everything that I'm not (except for the crazy).

I wish I could be her, but on some level I must be her right? I mean I made her up, and those feelings she has, those thoughts that she has, they must have come from somewhere inside me, right?

I wish that I could find where those things lie and that the real me could project, could be that girl that I want to be.

So I don't feel this way.

So I don't feel like a nothing.

So I don't feel so inadequate.

User Comments: [1]
Katana left the site
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Sun Dec 30, 2012 @ 12:48pm

Perhaps there is more than looks
A lovely and happy life to be led
And for all your troubles
I would think you know this already
So please go to that mirror and tell it, You cannot define me.
Perhaps you can draw your mind, your soul, how would you look if there was not a body
Or write of the soul, the beauty within
Or do something, anything you can do
To remember that the face is no measure of the heart.

User Comments: [1]
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