I let myself fall so many times.
I tried and failed, and tried again,
but what for?
The way today is,
I don't believe I can look forward to tomorrow.
Another day of regret.
I regret who I am, and the choices I've made.
I hate the way I live today,
the way I see today.
The way I see it,
It is another day to slip up, make a mistake,
and give myself a future I never wanted.
I didn't think I would feel it all over again,
hitting me like a train, killing me.
After the crash, I cannot remember how to feel truly happy.
How was I so happy before?
This life, with a past I can just barely remember,
memories missing and my footprints in the blank spaces.
This all builds up to today.
A today,
I never wanted to live.