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gaia_nitemareleft Blinded by the dark gaia_nitemareright
My angel wings have been torn, ripped off, and broken, unfixable, nothing remains but a scar.I'm sinking, drowning, suffocating in my darkness.

The light I no longer see, dark images form, I'm being held back, I'm lost confused, mentally insane. Darkness, dark thoughts, sad images, images of death control my mind. I'm going somewhere...Where to?...I don't know..I don't know anymore. I'm sick of this, sick of everything, everyone, mostly myself. What happened to my light? my pure self? where did they go?

I've been digging...deeper to find them...but as I yearn...the more lost I feel.
Feelings?!? who could forget them..... What feelings? the feelings of hate, anger, sadness,and emptiness......sure I know those feelings very well....for a loooong time too. I've been walking down an empty dark path, blindfolded, i still search the darkness....."Maybe if i try harder ill find them and go back to my happy, pure, innocent life" I said to myself......over and over and over again...still I keep walking.
Why do you go on.....why?....stop this....just.....please.....stop.....help me....save me.....find me.....show me hope....i'm losing it....
I went to far......I can't find my way back for the path behind me has vanished the only path is to continue aimlessly forward....

Why is this happening to me....why now... i'm not stupid to kill myself....its just a selfish request.......just even so what exactly am i waiting for?.......I don't know....I just don't know myself anymore....my goals, wishes, and hopes were all ruined....if i try harder or just try at all....nothing happens...everything is still the same....but worse......I don't want to kill the me inside...I want to save her...i want to show her the beautiful side of this cruel world....but its hard....for negativity lives all around me.........I don't know what to do, where to go , who to look up to anymore... i'm lost....