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These moods are absolutely, completely, and utterly frustrating.

It's no one persons fault in particular. It's not like someone says or does something to me to do this. They just happen, out of thin air, at random. I could be in a perfectly good mood; being around people, talking, laughing, being myself. Then suddenly I get quiet. The people around me get irritating.

Then I go through my head, trying to figure out what is causing this shift in mood. Is it a lack of caffeine? Do I need to grab some food? Is it something else.

Often, I'll go for a walk to clear my head. I did so today. The sun was warm, the breeze cool. I listen to good music and do some shopping at my favorite local hobby store. I make it back to where I was and rejoin my friends, yet there I was, annoyed.

Oh boy, here we go again.

I hate it. It's stupid, it's retarded, and it's infuriating. I can see this... mindset coming from a mile off like a giant ship breaking the flat horizon of the ocean. Yet I can do nothing to stop it. That stupid, bloody ship just floats ashore and turns me into a ******** emotional hermit.

I don't know why this happens. The only thing I do know is that I simply need to avoid people until it goes away. Generally a good nights sleep works. Sometimes it doesn't.

Whatever. I'll be fine.