Like I had said before, I'm far more careless than I used to be. I've been trying to be alone for awhile and I want to continue to be alone, but there's a part of me that wants someone there with me at all times. Now, I don't want it to be a boyfriend or a girlfriend, but some part of me does. I just don't know what I want anymore. I'm trying to just forget about it and that's a lot more difficult than it seems. Well other than that, everything else has been pretty great o: never thought I could be so...hmm... don't even have a word for it(: