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I have a girlfriend. Feels pretty ********' good. She's nice, she's considerate, she's fun, and she likes me for me. As much as I WANT to make an egoraptor reference, she does not make my d**k rock hard. Still, it feels pretty good. She gives me that kinda feeling of, "Hey, you make me happy and I care about you."

So, things are brightening up. Admittedly, I still don't have a job or a license to drive a vehicle... But, things come around in time. My grandparents were off on vacation for like 3 weeks and they came back a few days ago. They've stopped treating me like total crap. But, what I really want is to be able to stop beating myself up. I don't have the two things that make someone an "adult:" a job and a car.

Why am I so incapable of getting these? It's not like I can't; maybe I just don't care. I feel like I'm supposed to care and that I require these things to get up and out into the world. Not just for transportation, but to be a part of it. Not that I particularly want to, but I eventually have to become a self-made adult.

Things feel... Incomplete still. I got a rockin' girl that makes me forget about my worries, but I still feel like something's not here...

I also kinda miss chatting with friends over X-fire and s**t. Lately, it seems like there's nothing to talk about. It feels like everyone's busy or nobody cares. Being a self-made adult consists of living mostly on your own, but also having company during your off-hours. Having the whole summer ahead of me, I got a lot of off-hours. Too bad there's gonna be almost no one to talk to if this keeps up

So, for the first time in a while, things feel incomplete, but I'm sorta fine with that. I finally found what I've been looking for, but I guess that comes with its own kinda price...