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The smile on my face.. The way i look at you... The way i say that it is okie when im reallly hurting.. Itry my best to smile And keep it all inside.. Well guess what im not okie Itry my Best to smile and make it look like there is nothing wrong when you are around.. Idont like it when people are sad around me or even mad. But all i seem to keep Puting around me is people that not healthy for my life and yess i say that its not your fault but today icryed for the first time in a long time and it made me feel better i had to cry to realize that im not the person i thought i was i just kept lieing to myself to make other people happy.. And along the way i lost myself and the things that make me ... well me..and i dont think that i am ever goin to be back to the way i was i keep trying but I dont think that ill ever be back to that point that i just am happy and ... Every tear that fall from my face is always from the people around me .. they always to it seem like they are big and strong muscle people that cant be hurt.. well i use to belive them and there life issue.... But the other day i saw this person cry for the first time in my life and they told meh that they were always mad at me because thay always wanted to be me... I set there and just thought to myself ... why whould they say something like that.. and they told me it is because i am liked by everyone...but how could someone so awesome and cool be mad at me and my dumb life.. til then did i find out they were alwats being picked on... then i found out that there life was a lie nd so was mine......

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