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I really don't know how to start this off.
I just wanted to do this cause I haven't done it in awhile.
My OCD won't let me be so inconsistent.
Well I had a heart attack on Thursday.
While I was texting too.
I ended up crushing my phone during the ordeal.
I blacked out too.
My mom drove me to the hospital.
During the whole ordeal I apparently said some things.
I was screaming out about Itachi and Konan and E.....
All characters that I like from manga.
Except E he is a character I created.
I love him most of all!!!!
I also talked to the love of my life.......
My mom said it was a nice conversation and that I really must love her.
I honestly can't remember what I said, and she wont tell me!!
She says if I feel it then I should know what I said.
I ended up staying in the hospital until twelve pm on Friday.
I went to Jessie's house since I knew I was gonna stay there the whole weekend.
That and my heart hurt too much to go anywhere else.
Though with Phoenix(Jessie's wife) making me laugh so much I didn't mind.
My mom also was pissed about the broken phone.
She bought me a new one and is going to activate it....soon........
I freakin love this phone.......
The sun is rising..........
Things never change.
Jessie says things change but only for the worse.
Kelvin says I should keep striving for change.
My Senpai says that I should be a man and quit complaining.
I think I can still call a girl Senpai right??????????/
I wanted to be nice Alyessa has always been there for me.
She laughed pretty hard when I said it too her though.
Woman, can never please them.
She always laughed when I told her some lyrics......
"I only want you to think I'm fantastic, I'll participate in what you believe".
"If you give me the attention, yeah yeah that's the only compensation".
"I wanna be included in your conversation, what is there to think about"......
Your laughing now too huh?
No well you should be it's pretty funny.
My Senpai has always encouraged me when I felt bad I'm glad we talk even more.
I'm also glad she asked for my help for once, returning the favors.
I'm also going to visit her soon!!!!!!!!!
Well I don't know what else to say soo ********.........
Lyrics to the song I'm listening to.

The Everly Brother- All I Have to do is Dream.

Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
When I want you in my arms
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

When I feel blue in the night
And I need you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

FADE
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream