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Ugh this is so annoying.
So this past weekend I go out with my best friend and her boyfriend to a dubstep concert.
While we were there I met her boyfriend's older brother and we hit if off. At the time my bestie was all supportive telling me I should get with him and crap.
Then I tell her a few days later that I think I'm going to try to get with him cause for the first time in a long time I get butterflies in my stomach when I think of him and when I was with him.
The only thing she says back is "well go for it"--or something along those lines.
Normally this seems like a 'okay whatever' thing to most, but to me that was kind of hurtful.
I've never had a boyfriend before so I thought she'd be thrilled to see me so happy and finally making a move. But I brushed it off to the fact that she's sick and maybe just not feeling all too well.
Then later she tells me I should be careful and get to know him first and make sure hes not a druggie. Which I found kinda irksome, 1. Of course I'm going to get to know a guy before I date him, I've just been single for 21 years- NOT brain dead. 2. her reasoning for telling me to make sure he wasn't a drug user was that since he admitted he was on something while at the show she seems to think that is grounds for assuming he is a full time drug user. But the thing that got me was that her boyfriend of like...a day (and she'd known for what? a week?) was about to take something that same night until she saw him and got pissed.
Ugh idk then I tell her today that him and I have been texting, and she asked about what. I told her it was just about work and stuff but that I was cheezing (smiling) a lot. Then the following conversation happened:
Her:Ohhh jeeze. Don't let him play you lol
Me: What do you mean? DD:
Her: Idk just be careful
Me: Well thats really vauge and confusing. What am I suppose to be careful about?
Her: Just be careful. : p don't let him smooth talk you. Don't get too into it too fast.
Me: Well yeah I mean im not planning to go out with him immediately or sleep with him. Im just talking and trying to get to know him which is always what youre telling me to do in order to get to know them better :/
Her: Yeah I know I just don't want another Steve : p
Me: Yeah I know, and I learned my lesson with him. I just thought youd be kinda happy to hear im actually trying and happy and stuff :/
Her: I am happy : p I'm worried though
Me: And thats cause your such a good friend. But at the same time I am older now and its not like I want things to go fast, I like taking things slow.
Her: You are older and being with older men is different cause they wanna move faster lol
Me: Well its not like ill be single forever, ill eventually have to get into a relationship. But im not going to let someone force me into something I dont wanna be in
Her: I know. Don't get defensive! I'm just lookin out for you : p
Me: I know im just kinda confused. Friday you were telling me I should get with him and now it sounds like youre saying I shouldnt and its just really confusing me );
Anyways thats all thats been said for now and I'm trying to just forget it but ugh, I just needed to vent some about how confusing and upsetting it is. :[
 Dark Preistess · Mon Jan 30, 2012 @ 10:27pm · 0 Comments |
