Dear Tony,
I'm about ready to call it quits. There is no way that I can please everyone anymore, and I'm getting mighty of sick of it.
I took my college entrance exams yesterday, and I was mighty proud of myself. I scored really high in reading and writing... my math was a lower score than I wanted it to be, but I expected that. There was no way that I'd be able to score really high on it. But you know, I didn't care, I was proud that I finally got things started for myself. So, after my test and all the orientation like things I did, I get in the car... and even before we get OUT of the parking lot, my mother starts getting onto me with a bunch of bull s**t:
'I don't want you to use my car when you get your license, you'll have to buy your own.'
'You didn't have to go to college now. You can wait a few years and get a full time job so you can save up for your own car.'
'Fine, you can just do what you wanted and I'll throw your s**t into the basement and I'll rent out your room.'
********. ********. YOU!
I'm sooo tired of hearing this s**t. What the hell does she expect me to do? Stay with her forever?! I can't ******** do EVERYTHING at once! I've got money that I have to save for Adam coming over here, I've got college I have to pay for, I've got YOUR ******** RENT that you want me to figure out, gas money to put in the car, MY ******** LICENSE THAT YOU NOW SUDDENLY WANT ME TO GET, my own stuff that needs fixing, and then WHATEVER THE ******** ELSE YOU ARE GOING TO WANT ME TO PAY FOR!!! ******** YOU! I can't do it all! I'm only one person with a part time job! The only way to fix that is to go to college and get my ******** DEGREE! I'm NOT working in a fast food restraunt like you want me to, and I'm NOT going to medical school just to sastify YOU! I'm going to be 19 years old on Friday, and I've got my OWN life to worry about as well.
I'm serious Tony... if this doesn't stop, I'm getting Kohl's to transfer me to one in Lakeside Mall in Michigan and I'm moving back up there. I've already talked it out with my sister and her family. I can't keep trying to please everyone at once. Atleast up there my paycheck can be stretched further and I'll be able to save up better. But ******** this! If I have to hear this s**t for the entire time I'm gone. Even if I can't go up to Michigan I'll move in with Jean who said she'd gladly take me in.
GAAHH!! I can't keep doing this! For ONCE in my life I want to be ENOUGH for someone! Just ONCE! Is that really all that hard to come by in life? Really? If it is, then maybe it's just not worth it. Gah.. whatever... I've said what I did, and I meant it.
Anyways... I got my package from Adam in the mail yesterday! That made me happy. I'm currently enjoying the hot chocolate as I type. I really missed my squeeker hat. And the cards that he gave me are amazing! I'm just kinda sad that I didn't get into Magic until after you died, Love. ... I would love to have the chance to have a match with you. I'm not very good, but the chance to atleast hang out with you would have been great anyways. Maybe I'll get Allen some and we'll be able to battle each other until Adam comes. You'll be my secret Ace, okay?
Well, tonight I have to work and I have some of my room to clean before Emily comes this weekend. But thanks for listening, Love.
Netanya
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