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Most of what chloe said is true, and after thinking about it, she could probably live a lot easier without me. I'm not being emo or anything, I really.. don't care.

If It's best for her, to live without me, then.. Ok. I'll do it. It'll suck going back home after being so used to living free, but it's just more incentive to get a job and move back out on my own, eh?

I know she keeps telling me no, blah blah blah, because she feels that SHE'S the one responsible for it, she feels that she's the reason I'm leaving, and that I feel like a hurt little boy running into my bedroom because no one loves me..

but it's more of, financially, she can't support me, and I need a job, which I'm having a HELL of a time getting.. it's just not working out for me or her, and it's not fair to be a burden and eat up all her money.

Alone, she can get a dorm, or move in with whomever she wants, go to college, and live her life the way she wants. Me? I don't know.

I may move to San Antonio, and try to get a job at Time Warner, hang out with Tony, or move back to Sabinal, live with my dad.. work on getting my license, eventually move to Uvalde/San Antonio, and just.. do whatever, from there on out.

It's not what I would have preferred, but it's in her best interest.

I'm not going to talk to her about it, until s**t gets.... worse. Right now, she'll think I'm just reacting to the recent outburst, which I'm not. So, I'll wait until the right time, then talk about it.