"I spent this year as a ghost, and I'm not sure what I'm looking for. A voice on a phone that you rarely answer anymore. I came in here alone, came in here alone. That doesn't scare me like it did 7 months ago. I spent this year as a ghost and I'm not sure where home is anymore." - The Wonder Years
Well, I did come out of the last school year swinging. I thought I was ready to take on highschool, hell I even decided to do the honors program. But then I realized, today- one day before school- I'm not ready. I haven't even had my first day and I cant handle the weight of highschool. I'm run away, like I do all the time. I'm ready to give up. I can't afford to do it again, and I'm going to try. But s**t, I just don't know. This summer has sucked. I've just started struggling with my own depression, and most days I don't even know what I'm upset about. I don't want my bestfriends and I to drift, and I don't want all this work to bring me down. I just don't know if I'm ready.
I can't fool myself into believing I'm happy with where I am. This last day of summer sucked. Rainy, and cold. Not how I imagined. Well, ******** you highschool. I'm going to try to get through this first semester, let alone year. Let's see how I do.
AkisunaThePigeon · Tue Sep 06, 2011 @ 11:58pm · 0 Comments |