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Before i forget i have to write this down... it happend again... dreaming about marisa. I dont know why, but it did. And it does all the time, and its not always the same, but it always has the same consept. Me and her meeting again after we have not talked.... for like a year and well ill just tell you what happens this time.
I was at school... or a weird epic verison of my school and im walking along with friends and i start to walk up some stiars and there she is. The is a moment of slow motion... and then everything happens so fast. The dream is blurry so im not sure if she grabed me, i grabed her, or we both decided to pull away from the crowd, but we did. And i felt it again, that feeling that i use to get when i was around her... love, longing, idk really what it was that i felt but it was strong and i have never felt like that with anyone i dont think... i dont even remember how it feels i just know that in my dream i felt it. Anyways, we talked... unsure of to what it was (should have wrote this right after the dream!) but i know it was good. It made my heart flutter, and i was happy, and we just knew that we were suppose to be together.. we said somthing like we missed one another and what not. then that let to kissing, i kissed her, over, and over because i was happy that she was mine and i was not going to let go... to lose her this time. Then she jumped on me and i held on to her little body, almost falling backwards, but it was nice... then the dream ended.

Idk why i keep having these dreams. Do i really feel strongly for this girl still? or maybe its just because the is the last person i have been with, and felt any connection to? idk, but i keep having them and there nice and everything, but i rather not... do i really want her again? or is it just that feeling that i want? will i find it again? do i want to find it? so many questions from repeating dreams.... well... i guess ill never find out.
Live on and proster young one biggrin lol, ill get over it.
anyways, nothing happening in my life really. NO LIFE = Me. bleh!

till next time journal!