Jaxima: The Love Of My Life <3
"I dedicate this journal entry to the one I admire and adore, Jen.
I'm not a person with many words.
I hope I am able to make you smile.
I never EVER want to hurt you.
You mean the world to me.
You understand me.
You also know how I'm feeling.
You also try to help me out in conflicts
even when I never ask for it.
You also never get upset with me
even if I get angry or push you away.
I know that you'll always come back to me
even during my bad moments.
If I leave, you will follow.
And when you leave, I will follow.
We either leave together or never leave at all.
I still remember when we first met.
Me standing in front of that same damn tree that
I've been standing at for a long time in towns.
You came up to me to say hi and complimented my avatar.
Then we eventually started chatting for a while.
I asked if you were talking to me because
I'm well known in towns for the topics.
You didn't even know about my topics and
that I made the topics.
You weren't a fan...and I was glad.
You didn't just like me because I was popular.
So then we became friends after a while.
I think it took about a few weeks before I
eventually sent you a friend request.
I surprised you with a friends request.
You squealed. Heh heh. x]
Then we started talking and hanging out
with each other more often.
We hung out quite a lot. So we were pretty close.
And I remember having fights with my ex
and you were always there to cheer me up.
I think I remember crying in your arms that time.
I was so upset.
I was pretty embarrassed, but you told me to not be.
Then about a few days later, you confessed to me.
I remember having to think about it and
wanted to wait until things got better between my ex and I.
Unfortunately, it got much worse.
Sadly we weren't happy together.
She also kept getting close to my best friend.
And they were both flirting.
So that's when I decided to move on. I knew that I lost her.
And she preferred her over me...
which was another thing I was upset about.
So then I began to develop feelings for you, Jen.
The more I knew you, the more I liked you, too.
I knew that you were going to make me happy.
And I knew that I was going to make you happy as well.
I'm glad that I accepted your confession.
I don't regret it at all.
So now we have our own little place on gaia
where we spend time together.
And I love spending every second with you because
I know that things will get better.
You're everything that a seme could ever want.
You're kind, generous, loving, caring, cute and
really fun to be with.
You don't go around flirting with others, wearing skimpy outfits just to turn your "friend" on even if it's just pixels.
You are mine and mine alone. And I am yours.
And you always have a positive attitude
even if things outside of gaia aren't too well.
Everyone has conflicts and I know you have them too.
I will always be here to listen to you and
help you when things go bad.
And I know that you already do that for me.
Now it's my turn.
I want to help and do all I can for you.
I want to thank you for always being by my side and
never complain about what I do and don't do.
I don't want to force you into anything that you don't want to do.
I've learned from the past never to do that.
I've learned from my mistakes.
I hope I won't make those same mistakes again.
I'll be sure to pay attention this time.
However, if there is something bothering you,
please let me know right away.
I want us to work it out together.
I know I have my own flaws. I have trust issues.
I'm extremely bitter.
I tend to think about my past relationships and sometimes cry.
It's not like I miss the person, but sometimes I want to go back when everything was great. And when we were happy.
But I know that they will never be who they once were.
However, I know that I need to focus on the future...OUR future.
I need to learn from my mistakes and do all I can
to make this relationship a long lasting one.
I love you, Jen. I really do.
Everything that you do brightens my day.
You make me smile when you look at me.
You make me blush when you're around me.
You make my heart skip a beat whenever you're close.
I get chills.
And then...your happiness is contagious.
When you're happy, it makes me happy too.
I love you more and more every time we talk to each other.
I think about you all the time.
You are always in my thoughts and dreams.
I always look forward to seeing you everyday.
You are a dream come true.
You are my world. You're my everything.
You're not only just my future gaia wife,
but you are my best friend.
I care about you. I never want to let you go.
However if there is a time where I do let you go.
There is a saying that if you really love someone, set them free.
If they come back, they are yours.
Otherwise, they were never yours.
I hope you will always be by my side...