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	Nyobi's Journal Hm..i suppose i would desctibe this place as...me nd my thoughts...floating aimlessly and randomly, just to clear some space in my mind to think common sense stuff...like..how to wipe my a after taking a st, and...the reason why we dont stick our

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I havent been here in a while but I need a place to write. I have been thru hell and back and I feel like I am coming out of it. I used to have these dreams not long ago where I was running from death and always some how just managed to escape as long as I kept running. and only once looked back. Never leave your back open to your enemy. Keep looking back. My dreams were darkness or emptiness or reds for blood. And dead bodies..your typical bad dream I guess. Alot has happened and I guess these dreams were a way to tell me I had to keep fighting because theres really no other way I would come out alive. These past several years ive been in love, fell out of love, hated wanted, had, and lost. Every emotion was as good or bad as it could be and now ive come out smarter for it and a bit bitter. But I am also extremely happy. Finally. All this time has gone by and it took my personal hell and issues to figure out what was really important to me and what I really wanted. I guess you could say im stubborn. I dont like to be told something is bad for me, I like to experience it myself...and because of that I have wasted so much time;but i wouldnt have it any other way because I have learned so much about myself and life this way. I dont think I would have been satisfied if i hadnt.im so stubborn. I have a beautiful little boy now. He is my love and my life. he is the reason I havent completely ruined myself. All of the silly songs and poems about love he is. The funny things you hear on on tv about 'being my sunshine' or 'you complete me' he does. He keeps me straight without having to say a word. He is love. And I have another love. He came at just the right time. Its funny because he was there all along. We were even previously together several years ago.Well I dont know how it happened but we have each other again and its even better this time. I pray it only gets better. I need someone like him. But i will get to that in a bit. its so funny. We even met here on gaia like children do. Im sure many a Gaiain has. We are whats called 1st generation Gaians.I wonder if the others still come? I stopped visiting here and wanted nothing more to do with the World of Gaia. What brought me back Im not sure but I wanted to find him again and I didnt know where else to look. the second day I logged on though there he was! He Pmed me and we reunited just like that. He had gone through alot too apparently. He'd been searching for me even longer and harder than I had been looking for him. I dont know if it was fate or what but I feel like this was perfect timing.I think that the years have primed and aged us to be perfect for each other. He makes my heart sing (as lame as it sounds). And since he has been in my life again I want to listen to music and write again and sing and live life in a way that I had lost and forgotten was even possible. Even without him my life is very good now. but with him its all the better. So I am back on the right track again. Ive learned never to take family or close friends for granted, and everyone makes mistakes, its how you correct thhose mistakes that matters.I feel like I have can do anything and go anywhere I want from here. i have been down to hell and experienced the worst pain I believe anyone could ever feel. I can only go up from here and I am more than excited to see what my future holds. Nyobi · Sun Feb 06, 2011 @ 02:42am · 1 Comments


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